THE JOURNEY -- FROM HERE TO NOW

When I look back along a time-line of my life, I see that the whole journey for me has (so far) been circular. I started off realising with horror that my father and God (very closely related) might be right -- I might be a Nobody. So I struggled through decades of trying to be a Somebody, and now find myself arcing back to being No-thing, and discovering that "nothing" is another name for Infinite Possibility.

Nothing......
No thoughts that matter,
No feelings that matter,
No matter that matters.......
Just the Is-ness of being Empty-full.

I've just had open-heart surgery. Boy, oh boy! Does that return me to a state of nothing but the absolute immediacy of Now?!! There's no-where else to go! In the pain and confusion, there is no past that matters any more. There is no room for contemplating any future. My resources are fully committed to dealing with this moment. Everything, from a cough to a walk around the block, requires awareful choices and decisions, gathering of resources, and fully-focused love and attention. This is the absolute immediacy of life as-it-is.

I've also discovered something in the fine print about Goals. There was a time in the past when they helped be get off the arse of my ignorance and propel me into some kind of conscious authorship for and of my next moment. As a passive also-ran, I needed Goals -- rather like one needs all the prune juice one can swallow in order to get things moving after a heavy anaesthetic.

But there are riders to goals -- they must not be allowed to limit our thrust. Goals are only useful while they keep opening us up to New Possibilities and fresh lessons. If life takes us suddenly in another direction, we do well to drop the goals and make up some new ones. And don't get hung up on attaining our goals. Life as a human being is all about The Journey -- the destination will take care of itself, without any input from us, and there's bugger-all we can do about that. Heaven is not what we think it is, and is not a prize that has to be earned; it's where we came from and where we're bound. Hell is a man-made option that lies somewhere in between where we came from and where we're going to. Judgment Day, if we insist upon having one, is today!

Outside of our ego's individual me-ness, there is no judgment.
There is only Attention --
A presentness, availability and ever-deepening creative relationship with the Now.
Wherever we turn our attention, there is Creating,
And there is Love.
In this kind of fluid, flexible awareness
Notions of "success" and "feeling on top of it" become irrelevant.

When we become available and attentive to deep questioning,
We will always be brought to places that we do not know
And that we did not know that we don't know.
Attention will thus radically alter our relationship
With what we think we know.

And wasn't this how we were in the beginning?....
Before Innocence got confused with Ignorance
And we got pressured to grow up and get "knowledge".

I'll settle for Innocence over ignorance,
And for Knowing over knowledge.

ABSORBING AND REFLECTING

A red rose absorbs all the colours of the spectrum, especially around the blue (faster) end of the vibration scale, and reflects its (slower) redness back to us, so that we see it as "red".

So we, as humans-being, absorb what we will
And reflect back upon others what we choose, unconsciously, not to absorb.

Similarly, we see others refracted
Through coloured spectacles of our own making and choosing.
If we see our world through "rose-coloured spectacles",
The reds will appear to be even redder,
And the blues will turn a drab grey, and may disappear altogether.
We decide.
Unconsciously.


When we were very, very young,
Without thinking about it,
We began filtering and colouring our experience
When we got frightened
To see, and be seen, as-is.
It was our way of protecting our selves.

But we got used to the hues and assumed that the world really is just as we now see it.
How good is the news
That we're mistaken about that??!

The filters we put over our seeing
Limit what we knowingly see.
Our unconscious filtering decides for us what it will allow us to see.
(And in our ignorance we're so sure we see all, just as it is!!)
Our past decisions now "decide" us:
We are now the unknowing, unwitting victims
Of our own limiting, filtering programming.

Become aware.
Remember that we do not see --
We think that we see,
And it is the "thinking about" that is the problem.

Awareness is enough.
Remember the filters....
In awareness, the filters will gradually dissolve
So that we can absorb more of it all
And see more clearly.

HONESTY

I've been spending some time lately on a dating site. There would hardly be a single profile that does not cite "Honesty" as an essential requirement in a prospective partner. That's hardly surprising.

But what is the writer's definition of "honesty"? And why has it become a "must-have" for the seeker? Is it because of past hurtful experiences of dishonesty? How seriously has the seeker looked "honestly" at her contributions to that past trauma. What work has she done to clean up the likelihood of creating/finding dishonesty in future partners? How aware is the seeker that:

Whatever we resist will keep showing up in our face.

and.....

We always find what we're looking for.

and its corollary............

Whatever we've got we, maybe unconsciously, once put out for.

There's some self-responsibility called for here. If someone has a belief that "Men/women/other people are dishonest and will betray me", then they're going to get to be right about that, sooner or later. 

It's not my responsibility, or any other person's for that matter, to show up in their space and prove them wrong. In my experience it's near-futile. No matter how long we live together, there will never be an end to it. Sooner or later I will do, or neglect to do something that will be interpreted as being dishonest. Worse still, the harder I try NOT to be dishonest, the more likely I am to slip up.

When I lift the covers I find, in around 80% of respondees, that "honesty" equates to an absence of deceit. Well, that's OK as far as it goes, but it's a limited, passive perception of what it means to be honest. In my lexicon, Honesty is much more than a mere absence of dishonesty. Honesty embraces  states of being like openness, forthrightness, self-awareness and a willingness to open up to new ways of seeing, scrutiny and discovery. Honesty goes beyond the facts of a situation to exploring all the truths that surround it. True honesty calls on traits like courage and a willingness to open up to every possibility and stand alone in your own light.

Honesty is more than mere "not-telling-lies". It is more than just "telling the truth". Honesty is a way of being, open to all truths, and acknowledging the truth of all those experiences. Honesty involves the ability to incorporate and embrace all truths comfortably inside ones own skin.

If you want honesty in your life, start by creating it. If you find yourself demanding honesty, there may well be some dishonesty going on in you about which you haven't yet faced the truth.

FIRST IMPRESSIONS

I place great store by first impressions
And none at all in snap judgments.
How do I tell the difference?

Until something better comes along, I rate what I get on two scales --

Feeling -----------------> Thinking

Maybe Possible -------------------------> Damn Right!

First Impressions generally hover around the left-hand end of each scale: Snap Judgments sit squarely on the right-hand end.

It's a guide, that's all.

SOVEREIGNTY -- NOTES ON AN EXPLORATION INTO........

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Why am I afraid

To let go of what is keeping me rooted to the spot,

To jump into space

And own my sovereign power?

SOVEREIGNTY SPEAKS ---

You are attracted to me,
But you are distracted by the route you must take to find me.
You look to me as a source of Power and Control,
But they are not what I am.
Somewhere deep inside, you know me,

Yet you are afraid that I am dangerous.

You think that if you come too close to me, "you" may disappear!
You are right.
But by losing who you think you are
You will discover what you truly are.
But your ego trembles --
From where you stand at this moment

I seem like a bottomless abyss
And you are afraid that , if you come too close, you will be gone -- forever.

So, to be afraid of me is natural. 
I am a Possibility for Being -- a no-thing,
And who, in ego, is not afraid of a no-thing?


It is a habit for you to fear me,
But you cannot escape me either.
Wherever you may run to, I will haunt you,
I will perturb you, even in your safest moments,
Just to remind you that your destiny still awaits 
Beyond. where you are at this moment.


I look at you now and I see
A sovereign being..... creating......
Creating your Now experience.
If you now feel you are the victim of some circumstance or condition,

Remember that every sovereign is allowed to create whatever he/she wants, 
Including bogeymen to frighten and enemies to challenge and chase him.


You are already Sovereign
But you do not realise it yet.
That is as it should be......
As a fish cannot "know" water until it is out of it --

Consider............. possibly ............
You are using your sovereignty to create an illusion of Not-Sovereignty,
So that you can come to know what you are -- Sovereignty

When you are ready,
Come close
And see What-Is.
You will find as you gaze into me
That you are looking deep into your self.
The "You" that you've always thought you are
Will disappear, 
And your True Self will be there.


Let go.
Flow
Like a river that flows eventually into the ocean from which it once evaporated.
Yes, the river disappears and becomes the greater ocean.
In its essence, it is still the same watery stuff,
But its form is now different,
Greater,
And it has contributed to that "greater-ness".


Let go of your "smaller-ness"
And allow yourself to flow into the "greater-ness". 
You will not be diminished. Far from it.
In truth, there is no going back; 
How can a river go back upstream?
Does a river seek to return to its source?
How far back would it have to go?
What is the Source?
Is it the brook in the mountains that feeds it? Or is it the melting snow that feeds the brook? Or is it the winter snow and rain? Or the clouds that foster the rain?
Where does it begin?
There is no "source"
And every stage in the cycle is Source.


To return to the ocean is the river's destiny.
To be the ocean is its nature.
The river is the ocean becoming.


Let any fear and resistance be there
And go with the flow anyway.

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Every one of us is a sovereign being. 

The only question is whether we real-ise it, or not?
Why would we not?
Because we'd rather manipulate and control
Than be Sovereign.
A sovereign being has no more excuses
For withholding his sovereignty.

A realised Sovereign Being --

• Is empowered by nature
• Is empowering - nature-ally
• Gives authority to ....
• Authorises ...
• Gives ability to ...
• Enables ...
• Permits and allows ...
• Is authorised by the author of his/her being, to be effective in this world .

A sovereign being has a deep sense of all the levels of Self, and of how the self creates and adds to the quality Life -- his/her own, and all other life around. A sovereign being knows there is no separation between him/her self and other selves and the environment which supports and nourishes them all.

 A sovereign being knows how the condition of being human puts certain rules and limits on his/her  divinity, and chooses to enjoy that game rather than get bent out of shape by it. He also knows that, whatever the prevailing weather conditions, the game goes on. He knows, too, that sometimes the game conspires to eradicate temporarily the memory of his Sovereignty. He is induced to think the game is "real", just to heighten the level of entertainment.

What are some of the Characteristics of our Sovereignty?

1. Sovereignty is not physical. It cannot be found in any particular place; and it can be felt in many places simultaneously.
2. Sovereignty is not bound in the confines of Time. It remains changeless in the face of constant, relentless change.
3. Sovereignty is not understandable; it can only be known by declaring it, and becoming it. Sovereignty is not capable of being proven, no matter how insistently our minds may demand it. Like a lot of things, Sovereignty just IS. We cannot see it or prove it, but we can see the evidence of its presence.
4. Sovereignty is not judgmental. It allows. To be sovereign is to be wholly open to all that is. It judges no-one and no-thing, not even the harshest critic. Nor does Sovereignty experience Itself as being judged by any one or any thing. It is above all that petty stuff.
5. Sovereignty assumes the perfection in every situation. For a sovereign person, nothing needs to be eliminated for any reason; and nothing can be eliminated without destroying the integrity of the whole. 
6. Sovereignty is larger than mere mind. Life for a sovereign being isn't a riddle to be understood or  solved, but a mystery to be lived, and the perfect answer to every question that has ever been asked.
7. Sovereignty is the power to limitlessly and unconditionally let-go (forgive). It knows that any resentments destroy its freedom.
8. Sovereignty is the power to create and dis-create on its own authority.
9. Sovereignty is willing to fully play the game of life by going along with the pretense that it's not a game. While the game is on -- it plays "as if" it's real, but when Mum calls us home for tea, game over.
10. Sovereignty is willing to create intrigue by pretending not to know, thus making exploring and learning a willing entertainment.
11. Sovereignty is willing to allow comedy, intrigue and drama by pretending not to love every one and every thing absolutely and unconditionally at all times.
12. Sovereignty is the One-ness of many facets.
13. Sovereignty is the source of all natural knowing.

In a state of Sovereignty, life has magic. Results happen at the wave of a thought. We are loved, admired and respected (and maybe also suspected, misunderstood and feared), without any effort on our part. That's right, life doesn't change more than usually, but it does become magical -- simply miraculous. Each new moment is experienced as fresh and unique. We stop using faulted memories about experiences of the past to determine how we're going to feel and act now.

As children, we were originally Sovereign but we sold out on it in favour of getting some immediate needs met. We vaguely noticed at the time that something had gone, but we didn't realise what that was.
We had handed our personal sovereignty over to authority figures -- firstly our parents, and later -- people like teachers, priests, God, the school bully, parking police and bosses. We began to revere and fear the power we had given them, and even managed in some instances to feel threatened by it and guilty in its presence..

By pushing away our sovereignty, we put our selves at the mercy of capricious overlords with their own issues and axes to grind that have little or nothing to do with our welfare. We felt vulnerable to seemingly meaningless and destructive winds and currents of outrageous fortune.
That indeed was a fall from a state of grace

Looking at the state of Sovereignty from the bottom of the pit we've fallen into,
It's impossible to remember
And difficult to imagine what life might be like for a sovereign being.
We cannot visualise ourself in that place.
We're bound to feel threatened, or powerless, or resentful, or jealous, or guilty
In the presence of anyone who is sovereign in their power.
It never occurs to us --
a) that we once had what we now feel victimised by; and
b) that we can get it back.

BE WHAT YOU ARE

Sovereignty is not just for an elite few.
Sovereignty is everyone's birthright.
Reclaim your inheritance.


SOVEREIGNTY #101

1. There are no rules for attaining or maintaining Sovereignty. All that you need is the Willingness to let go of Victimhood and be sovereign once again,  Awareness, a creative relationship with all of life, and a growing love for the truth of yourself, including all of your contradictions and uncertainties. Without these basics, however, forget it.
2. The return to Sovereignty does not necessarily mean your circumstances will change; it calls for a change in your view of, and attitude to them. If you take on a quest for Sovereignty to "better yourself", you're in for a rough time and possible disappointment
3. Sovereignty is a no-thing. I cannot point it out to you on the street. We cannot pick it up and handle it. But we can certainly recognise someone who lives in it. It is a state of Be-ing.
4. Sovereignty begins with choosing whatever is to be exactly as it is - for now. When you feel light, be light. When you feel dark, be dark. Whether it is day- or night-time outside is irrelevant.
5. To be sovereign, you cannot be passive, but you must be surrendered -- ie. engaging creatively with what-is. You can surrender to a Purpose, a Stand, a Context, a Vision, and/or a deeper level of self Commitment, all of your choosing. You choose them for no reason other than they appeal to you as a new way to live your life. You are re-learning how to learn -- from your self -- in the very areas where no-one may ever  have taught you how to learn.
6. A sovereign person stands, relatively happily, in Uncertainty and Discomfort, knowing that they are signs from the ego that new ground is being broken (something egos don't like), and that he/she is creative enough to surf on through the turmoil. A sovereign person knows deeply that the discomfort arises from the fact that our ego's inability to embrace the largeness of what is going on, and its unwillingness to learn growth lessons, are being stretched beyond previous limits, bringing us more and more into an unobstructed and more creative relationship with ALL that IS.
7. As a surprising and paradoxical consequence, Sovereignty will not help us feel either secure or invincible. It may instead bring us often to the door of Frustration and the apparent impedance of our desires. We may hit The Wall, and there's a creative reason for that -- Frustration and Impedance present an invitation and a challenge to review our predetermined expectations of the way we thought this would work out, and to re-evaluate our relationships to life and to what and who we think we are.
8. Uncertainty is a good sign. A sovereign person stands in Not-Knowing and Discomfort, calmly confident that he/she is available to infinite creativity. 
9. Not surprisingly, Sovereignty is therefore the road less traveled. Human minds will do anything to avoid Uncertainty and Not-Knowing. While almost universally present in pandemic proportions, inner confusion and anxiety are not popular topics for cafe conversation in polite society. They remind others of their denied discomfort. "Friends" are defined unconsciously as "someone who'll go along with my lies,as long as I go along with theirs." In fact, most of us would rather DIE than tell the truth to anyone (including ourselves) about just how unsure we are. But this road is one of transformation, where one is challenged to surrender all ideas and projected images of self, and yield ones life up to unknown and unprovable possibility, without any reassurance of outcome. Here we face the biblical Eye-of-the-Needle, the Gate of Aloneness, where we have to leave all our baggage behind, and where the motivation to pass through comes less and less from outside sources, and more from some inner light.
10. Sovereignty in relationships is a balancing act. While not being anybody's doormat, a Sovereign being commits to a relationship with life and others that says........... I will not withdraw from an open-minded, honest and vulnerable relationship with this (person). I will be available and attentive. I will seek to see and stand upon the other point of view, and allow that it is also mine. To the best of my ability at the time, I will accommodate this "other", even as I consider my self. 

When I started down this road, the way seemed to lead towards increased physical and heightened psychic powers and wisdom.
So I thought anyway
The value of taking this way seemed obvious and, at the outset at least, I had many companions on the journey.
But along the way, the topography has changed.
The way now leads me more into an open, immediate relationship
With all that I am and all that is -- weaknesses, warts and all.
On top of that, I have to greet each day with a growing emptiness of not-knowing.
All that I thought I knew is rapidly becoming irrelevant.
In this place, despair occasionally lies nearby, just out of sight:
I turn to face it.
We nod an acknowledgment of familiar friends
And continue on our way.

As I venture through the Gate of Loneliness.
I find myself resisting loneliness,
Looking around to see if anyone else is taking the same steps
Looking for confirmation from others,
Looking for Approval, Reassurance and Recognition,
So as to assure myself that I'm on the "right" track,
And that I'm not alone.
Eventually this, too, has to be surrendered:
The journey is no longer being made for anyone or for any purpose
Other than the journey itself.
I do not know,
Cannot know,
Nor need I know if this is the right way.

I'm still supported by a few true friends and relatives.
They cannot know what I'm going through
But they love me enough to hover nearby anyway,
Knowing that their company is important to me.
Alone in company I walk on,
Yielding to the fullness of my Unknowing.

To be Sovereign
We have no choice but to stand
Naked and defenceless in our own light,
Yet in rapport with all that is.
There is nowhere left to turn aside
For we are enveloped by Is-ness.

Sovereignty is a state of integrity so demanding
That when anxiety and despair occasionally come to sup with us, we ask in anguish and radiance --
"Why this? Why me? How did I get here? Is this where I'm supposed to be?"
There is no answer to that.
Just the awesome silence of What-Is.

At this point the  roller-coaster has broached the crest;
Gravity has taken over;
We have passed beyond the place of choosing either for or against.
Living solely from the immediacy of this experience here/now,
Without any props of past ex --perience or future assurances to sustain us,
We are no longer able to act from any conviction of being "right".
Even the old crutches of hopes, visions and fantasies
Crumble to dust.
Even they are a rejection of the omnipotent, omnipresent Is-ness.

In Mastery we engage with life, meeting it on its own terms;
In Control, we disengage from life and separate ourself from it and the source of all being.
A sovereign being truly sees
That he/she has never been in control.
In Surrender he finds Integrity.

CHOICE AND CHOOSING

A lifetime of choosing is leading to Choice-less-ness.
Having committed to live a life of awareful integrity,
It came as a bit of a surprise to discover
That my only other creative choice
Is whether or not to choose that I have no choice.

We are invited to surrender to a fundamentally wiser process
That is organising the flow and direction of all life.
This wiser intelligence cannot be demonstrated nor proven,
But becomes miraculously real to us when we surrender
To choicelessness.
Without that surrender, ego keeps dancing distractedly around on the spot,
Blocking the view.

To choose Sovereignty acknowledges an inner realisation
That there will come a time when we can no longer continue life on our terms;
The intelligent person surrenders willingly as soon as possible and gets on with living -
The stubborn person waits until he's forced by catastrophe or failing health and strength,
And resists dying, all the way to the grave.

There's more on offer in Life than not-dying.

The instant we surrender our ego to the flow of life,
Questions of Choice and Free Will fall away,
Subsumed by a feeling of one-ness with Life and Purpose in its deepest sense.
Sovereignty awaits us inside.
Hidden behind Choice awaits the infinte possibility of Choosing;
Hidden behind Free Will awaits the Freedom of All Will.
(The notion of "Free Will" is loaded with "Won't"s -- hadn't you noticed? The Freedom of All Will is that it says "Yes" to every possibility.")

Once surrendered, I found that life on MY terms had been severely limited
To what I could think of,
And what I could imagine.
No wonder then that life resembled a cracked record/cracked record/cracked record...........
The best that I could think about at the time
Brought me back time and time again
To struggle against crises and suffering.
Every time.
How about you?

When I finally gave up the struggle
And surrendered "my's" insistence that life turn out as I thought it should,
I began to discover how surprising and wonderful life can be.
When we stop pestering, interfering, controlling,
When we get out of the way and let life happen --
Life opens up to us.

Our choice is always
To choose the road that empowers, or the road that disempowers.
How do we tell the difference?
Discerning one from the other isn't as hard as it may seem.
One road looks safer; the other feels scarier:
One road looks "right"; the other sports a sign that says "Wrong Way -- Go Back".
Operating on the principle that "If I do what I've always done, I'll keep getting what I've always got",
I now usually choose the road less travelled --
The one that looks like the "wrong" way, the scarier of the two.
Ultimately, of course, it doesn't matter which branch you take --
You'll get to where you're going to whichever way you go.
But the fork less travelled is always far more interesting, revealing, and possibly quicker.

The Will we have to access to plunge deeper into Be-ing
Is not the same "will" we need to push life around for attainment.
The Divine Will packs possibilities
That become activated when we give over our "self"
To the process of living and to each other,
In such a way that there are no considerations of  "winning" or"losing".
The Will of Ego and the Divine Will are polar opposites.
One difference between them is that the Will of Ego cannot contain Divine Will,
(Ego thinks it IS God!)
Whereas Divine Will allows individualistic Will to be.

LOVE THY GODNESS; LOVE THY NEIGHBOUR

Something got lost in tranlsation.
I have a hunch that, when these famous words were first uttered,
They were less of an admonition to "Obey this, or else..."
Than a statement of What-is......
"This is a fundamental fact of being human --
We love our divine nature,
We love each other;
And the way we love others is exactly how we love ourselves, and vice versa."
This is What-Is.
There's no choice about it.
There's nothing noble or esoteric about it;
It comes with the condition of being human.
At the cost of your own alienation from yourself and others,
You can deny or ignore it until the cows come home;
But the fact remains that you, me, god, the person in your face, and all the space in between
Are all of the same stuff and indivisibly interconnected.
How well our lives are working has a lot to do with
The level at which we acknowledge and co-operate with this state of affairs.
It's a reflection of the level of our attunement
To the highest, finest energy of Existence.

GETTING BACK INTO BALANCE

A truly sovereign person is sufficiently poised, relaxed and empowered
To stand alone in an unobstructed, free-flowing relationship with all people.
When you lose your equilibrium
Take some time and space out for yourself,
Re-consecrating yourself...

"To all that is, and to the watcher within."

As our power returns, so does our consciousness of our place and purpose in the scheme of things.
We know we  make a difference in the world
And we set about joyfully doing just that,
Empowering and enabling others along the way.

• Being Sovereign is a result of choosing -- choosing to engage creatively with whatever is happening, while it is happening.
• Being Sovereign is a result of a personal commitment to live as much as possible in the Now
• Being Sovereign is a result of celebrating that you are what you are, and you aren't what you aren't, and seeing in gratitude the perfection of that.
• Being Sovereign is the result of saying "Yes" to what happens, and "Yes" to what doesn't happen. That includes saying "Yes" to your Yeses, and "Yes" to your No's. Resistance is not only futile, it's the kiss of death to creative and permanent change. "Revolution" and "Evolution" are different  words for a very good reason.
• Sovereignty begins with first giving an unqualified "Yes"  of acceptance to what is so in your world, and an equally unqualified "Yes" to what is not. If something needs changing, a Sovereign works first on him/her self, seeking to change in himself whatever is being reflected out there. Having dropped all resistance to the situation he is then free to deal creatively with it. A Sovereign knows how radically our world transforms when we do.
• Whatever a sovereign being fears or resents (or any other feeling reaction for that matter), he says "Yes" to the feeling, and chooses it to be so. He fully and gratefully embraces the experience of it as a message from his emotions, telling him where some housekeeping remains to be done on his addictive programming. That which a sovereign being fears/resents/ is jealous of..... may disappear; it may not. If it disappears, he says "Yes" to its disappearing, and doesn't trawl back looking for it. If it does not disappear, he says "Yes" to its non-disappearance, and drops any expectation or addiction that it should be some other way than just as it is. He does all this without any rationalising or efforts to explain "why". For a sovereign, What-Is .. is; and What-Isn't .. isn't. Period.
• Being Sovereign is the result of choosing to creatively surf the events of your life.

Contrary to popular folklore, the circumstances of our life do not need to be changed in order for us to be Sovereign and Happy. We have tried that many times over -- tell me, how is it working for you? Being Sovereign is very much about how we choose to experience and deal with the circumstances of our life. It's a matter of transforming our relationship with the circumstances and events of our life, It means doing whatever we have to in such a way that we're no longer the victim of what happens. No matter how many people take it up as a lifetime occupation, Victimness does not work..

There's a paradox to get comfortable with here --

• You are the source and creator of all your experiences; and
• You don't have the least control over what happens..

Choose what is happening. Decide to get creative with it, and use it as a learning tool.

When you want what you've got, you'll always get what you want.

Once you can embrace the paradox, you'll find that your life circumstances DO change, without any pushing and pulling from you.

It may not be easy at times. But it is simple....................

Create with what you get, when you get it;

Don't sweat what you don't get, when you don't get it.

Got it?

BEING HUMAN -- SEEN AS A HOLOGRAPHIC REALITY

• What we assume is "real" is a 3-dimensional image created by the interference pattern of two "lasers" -- Mind and Spirit? For this holographic reality to work, one laser beam must be a pure and coherent reference signal, against which the other beam interferes and interacts.
• The resulting image is 3-dimensional, but non-material. There is no "thing" where the image is seen and felt, but we see and feel it anyway. We think it is real.
• When the holographic plate is smashed (Big Bang), the whole image is inherent in every fragment of the plate: every individual piece of the chip carries the imprint of the whole. (If we could really get a grasp of this phenomenon, over half of our suffering and all of our illusions of powerlessness would be over in a trice) 
•  In smaller fragments the image may diminish slightly in distinctness, but it is there. When the smashed plate is restored to wholeness, however, its time-space properties will not be the same as before. (I think God would be pleased about that.)

SECOND CHILDHOOD

Oh! To be as a little child!
In an undifferentiated
And undifferentiating state of consciousness,
Gazing shamelessly
And appreciating unjudgmentally
The whole of experience
Simultaneously.

But we follow instructions and "grow up"
To live imperfect, fractured lives
Because we use Ego-Identity as a reference point
Instead of our more natural Divinity.

Having tired of "maturity",
We return 
To learn all over again
How to intuit the whole puzzle,
All of the time
Rather than piece-by-piece.

THE FULL MONTY

Have you ever seen a partly pregnant woman?
Me either.
We cannot transform selected bits of ourself --
It's all or nothing.

I-DENTIFICATION IS LIMITATION

Any thing we give our attention to,
We enliven.

But any aspect of our self that we I-dentify with
We separate from the whole,
Claim special ownership to
And fix into the foreground,
Preventing it from ebbing and flowing back
Into the vast awareness from which it energed.

A part of our self  is not the whole of self --
It is a limitation -- less-than.....

So when we I-dentify with any part of our self
We I-dentify with Less-than,

Cut it off from the Source,
And suffer.

PRO-DOTES TO FEAR

When we create the future as frightening, the things we do to make ourselves "safe" eventually destroy our peace of mind.

How's your level of fear at this moment?
That's not a glib aside --
Check. On a scale of 1 to 10........?

A new awareness embraces energies that are represented by words like ---

• Trust
• Balance
• Allowing
• Appreciating
• Gratitude
• Surrender
• Love
• Humility

 Go back to the top of the list again. "Trust". It's just a word -- some squiggles on an electronic screen. But there's an experience behind it -- an experience that is very personal to you. Say "Trust" to yourself now and feel into whatever it evokes in your solar plexus. Say it again -- "Trust". Keep saying it and take what you get. When there's a shift, move on to the next word -- "Balance" --- and so on. Add any other words that pop for you. You're looking for a real, multisensory memory experience.

Done? Good.

How's you fear level now?

SEPARATION & RELATIONSHIP

It all started when Thought thought about itself:
"I Am" said "What am I?"
An illusion of Separation was created --
So that One-ness could look at Itself
And have a relationship with itself.
Then Oneness found the image in the mirror boring,
So it created different manifestations of itself
By simply becoming them.
This is more fun! Each manifestation can experience its godness in a different way,
And can experience other manifestations of the same godness, each having their experiences.

The purpose of relationship is so that "we" can compare notes.
For the fun of it.
Without the illusion of Separation,
Relationship would be neither necessary nor possible.

Ego is obsessed with division and relationship,
Departure and Destination
Me and Not-Me
Togetherness and Separatedness
"I" and "Me"
Internal and External
Right and Wrong
Left and Right
Up and Down.......
...you know how it goes.

In school we were instructed in the realm of Facts --
The territory of absolutes, definitions, differentiation and distinction.
There's nothing wrong with that, except that isn't all there is.
We acquired intelligence and knowledge,
But little experience of Knowing.

Now that we have graduated from the classroom into Life,
We are challenged to dissolve the boundaries
Between self and experience
Between what we think we know,
And How we come to actually know it.

Ego is my relationship with all that I experience:
"I am", though, is the detached Awareness of all experience.
No separation. No other-ness.
No relationship

I-KNOW-SENSE

(a.k.a "Innocence")

Ego is the world-weary, ignorant adolescent in each of us,
Who knows everything, and experiences nothing.
Further knowing, other realities and possibilities are denied.

"I-am" is the innocent child in each of us,

Who simply knows nothing and experiences everything,

With no pre-conceptions of any kind --

No concepts, ideas, opinions, judgments, beliefs, mind-sets, prejudices or conditioning patterns

To limit, modify or classify the experiencing.
In Innocence all knowing is available . In Ignorance, none is possible.

In the divine state of Innocence, there is no separation and, therefore, no need of relationship.

THE THOUGHT THAT THUNK US

You and I

And the stars above and the earth below

Owe our very existence to,

And are given definition by

Another dimension --

The Thought that thunk us,

The thought-glue that holds us altogether in its mighty embrace.

This is why it is possible for human consciousness

To go beyond its human-ness, 

To meet up with a divine origin-ality

That orchestrates all that is. 

We connect with it by simply noticing the evidence of its presence.

But this only can happen while we are awakened and alive to that connection,

Sensing into the Knowing that is beyond the human body/mind,

Feeling our way into higher frequencies that we cannot see or hear.

We have a level of consciousness, one that has been asleep for decades,

That is capable of sensing vibration that is too quick

For normal consciousness to notice.

This new sensing has nothing to do with straining to listen and hear. 

It is something that comes to us when we stop efforting at finding.

When we stop the quest for Finding, we will be found.

Nor is this new education about intelligence;

It is my experience that logic and reason divert us 

Time and time again,

Away from the realms of "feeling-into".

How is your level of Trust?
Limited as you are
By knowing what you think you know --
Can you now drop your Awareness in to the void
Of the unseen, unheard, only-felt Thought/Force of all-that-is
And experience its unconditional love, knowing and support?

In this divine space
You will discover that you know nothing

And you will instantly remember the higher levels of "In-tuition"

Where we meet All-Knowing ----
The Thought that Thunk Us.

MASTER CLASS

What do you want from me?
Tell me.
If I have it, I will gladly give it to you.
Do you want Answers?
To what?
Have you formed your Question yet --
The question of all questions.

Whatever it is,
That Question is for you.
I have no "The" answer to it.
For I am not you.
Only you know.

What I do,
And all that I can do,
Is to conspire in your life
To keep on throwing you off-balance
So that you can find your own way
To a new equilibrium.
I have to do that every day for myself;
Now it is your turn, for your self.
Find your own Questions --
You already know the answer.

I do make this commitment with you --
I will join life in a conspiracy FOR you;
I will stimulate you, tease you, poke you,
I will slap you silly,
Provoke, tickle, press, squeeze, seduce and insult you.....
Anything to knock you off the concrete pedestal of your present viewpoint.
Not because it is wrong,
But because it is not the whole vista
And you have been loitering on it for far too long.