THERE IS MORE....

A baby has to learn to strengthen, control and co-ordinate its body before it can fully express itself in the wider world. In a similar way, the first phase of our growth into consciousness seems to be a strengthening of one's awareness of "I', "me" and "my-ness", and expanding that into an Ego.  But it's only meant to be a phase.....there is more.......

Setting  goals for Personal Success and Strategies for  Winning at Life seemed to work for a while, but at the price of something far more precious. But that wasn't obvious, until the life I constructed collapsed like a house of cards, not just once, but 3 times!.(I'm a slow learner!) Out of that wreckage emerged new dreams of becoming a better person. of  accessing enlightened power, and of living forever in the Here and Now. But the motive was still Me. I wanted to be child-like, but stayed childish. Stirring somewhere deep inside me was still the old, familiar rumbling ...... there is more......

There comes a point where further growth toward transformation and realisation depends on a 180-degree switcheroo. The act of entering the challenge of living fully becomes a conscious letting-go:

• Of any need to control
• Of every obsession with self and self-invovlement.

Living becomes, instead, a surrender into Being -- a surrender where Be-ing becomes Be-coming.
Self Involvement becomes Self-Awareness.

And still there is more.........

Some of the reflections I see in the world around me show that the more powerful and masterful I become, the more acutely I feel  both the incomprehensibility and uncontrollable chaos of it, along with its beauty and wonder. As I venture out of the safety of my ego-shell, my world of human interaction is becoming
something of a busy freeway. Beyond my personal space, the wider world of human interaction seems to be more violent, more dis-eased and more isolating. I'm sure this is a skewed vision, perhaps from watching too many news bulletins. But it does seem an odd counterbalance at a time when man is becoming more enlightened, more in touch, and more immediately conscious
And when more and more ordinary people are finding selflessly un-spectacular ways to better the lives of those around them and make a difference

It's a challenge, isn't it, to find an even deeper self,
To shed more and more layers of fantasy about how enlightenment and progress ought to look and feel like,
To shed the very Ego that we created to get us to this point,
Until we can look honestly, and accept totally,
How it is,
And who we really are.

The final (?) phase
Is letting go of Self-Awareness
Completely
And becoming lost in just Be-ing.

That's when I'll know I am dying..