If you haven't yet made that commitment,
You may like to skip this.
If you have, I have a heads-up for you
On something you're going to come up against,
A naturally occurring phenomenon which is endemic to human beings of every race and creed --
The Anti-Transformation Shield.
The human mind is manic about stability --
The stability of itself and of its one-sided, contradictory ideas.
That is the way mind is designed.
This is neither good nor bad,
It's just the way it is.
Human minds abhor anyone or anything that rocks the boat
(Including yourself!)
Ego Mind, unlike the cosmic mind, does not, and will never know Balance.....
The ability to find and maintain equilibrium in a chaotic environment.
The cosmic mind is chaos, and finds balance;
The human mind hates chaos, and looks for stability.
To get balance, you have to get "out of your mind".
Transformation and evolution are a direct affront to stability;
They not only rock the boat,
They sometimes capsize it!
Un-conscious ego/mind is terrified.
Ego/Mind has a natural, unconscious shielding process against anything it considers to be a threat to itself,
Including the threat of transformation.
So what do we do about that?
Outright opposition to our mind and its mechanisms
Will not work;
You can't defeat your mind with your mind.
How do we circumvent the mind?
Consider this....
Try using your mind as an ally
By creating a conscious shield around your transforming.
As we explore deeper into awareness,
Some kind of conscious protective nurturing process is important,
Especially during the early stages of each phase.
For example, we have to be aware of the possibility
Of our own misplaced motivations for growth,
Such as an underlying greed for peace,
Or for new and more sensational or extraordinary experiences,
Or - my favourite - impatience with the rate of our development.
Such motivations for transformation are going to get us into trouble.
To cope with them we can first develop a basic, no-nonsense self-honesty
(In fact, we won't get far without it.)
To modulate the speed of one's unfolding we can use tools like nutritional diet, sex, exercise, meditation and activities that allow us to share energy with others.
These are all examples of physical conscious shielding.
The more balanced or resourceful we become,
The more accommodating we become of shifts and drifts.
But there are still certain levels of energy
That we cannot tolerate for too long
Before we start to shut down.
I'm not talking just about pain and illness here;
There's only so much pleasure we can take, too,
Before it starts to become uncomfortable.
(How long can you stand being tickled before you do your block?)
So what do we do about it?
Well, walling off consciousness by surrounding yourself (or another) with white light
Is a primitive level of spiritual shielding that often works.
More mature still, when you can manage it, is to become transparent to surging energy
Out of a deep and imperturbable sense of acceptance of what's happening.
That takes practice. Don't get discouraged if you don't succeed at first.
Start by letting small, manageable bits of the energy in question pass through you at first.
You're learning new skills -- be patient with yourself.
With practice, both forms of shielding --
Throwing a white-light cover, and becoming transparent --
Offer us an experience of growing mastery (not control)
Over our experience.
Just to wonder about shielding, without paranoia, is important.
When stuff arises,
Instead of opposing it,
Think about consciously reframing it;
Meditate -- feel your way into a wider context to contain what's happening
And FEEL some truthful answers to yourself in response to the following questions..........
- What part of my being is essentially pure and unconcerned at the moment? [The answers you're looking for will not be the ones heard in words, but those sensed in silence. If nothing comes immediately, don't be discouraged. Stay with the question, and stay aware. Your "answers" will come]
- Who is the final arbiter of what I'm experiencing now?
- What part of me am I consecrating my life to right now? (The aggrieved victim, or the master observer?)
- What else am I consecrating my life to? (In reality, not ideally)
- Where does my sense of god and the universe finally rest in my awareness?
- Where am I now in relation to that?
- Is this loving, or wrathful?
Different facets within our being evolve at different rates,
And at different rates to others.
Each facet has its own level of tolerance to rising levels of intensity;
This is one reason why a rush to transformation can become counter-productive
If pushed to hard or too fast.
- For what level of my being is this shield provided?
- Is there any part of me now that is not new, not vulnerable, and not developing?
- Is there any sense in where I'm at now of good or bad? Right or wrong? OK or not OK?
Conscious shielding is only meant to be temporary, for as long as it's needed to nurture the newness into a life of its own, and not a moment longer. Shielding will be needed for as long as we're still feeling an interplay of "good" and "bad" forces. The second we realise that duality no longer dangles us, the shields can be dropped.
There is a higher plane of Wholeness and Is-ness
Where no experience is felt as either good or bad,
Better or worse, bearable or unbearable.
Don't go looking for that --
The search will push it away.
Simply know that it is there;
And it will come to you
When you are ripe.
In the meantime, wherever you are, ask yourself......
- Can I meet my Self in this place?
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