ON THE MOVE TOWARDS WHOLENESS

Perturbation is the incubator of Transformation.
That may be good news (if perturbation is what you've got)
Or bad news (if perturbation is what you're desperate to avoid).

We are shielded naturally from perturbation
By our own un-consciousness
And by any ideas, beliefs, attitudes and expectations about reality
That invite us to operate in a narrower, lower dimension.

Once we begin, though, to open up to less conditional and more aware states
And higher-frequency levels of wholeness,
This unconscious protective matrix, intrinsic to ego/mind,
Is automatically and intentionally weakened.
The resulting expansion experience is turning out to be
An acceleration  of the death/rebirth process.

There are odd times when I find this transition quite disturbing.
Some mornings feel a bit like "Groundhog Day" --
Being thrust backwards to a recurring Beginning
That develops into a something new and more vulnerable than yesterday.
It's no surprise at this stage
That my ego is coming in for a massive shakeup and a bit of a bruising,
But all egos teeter and bruise rather easily, don't they?
(Especially the seemingly tougher ones!)
My mind, of course, wants to counter-revolt.
It throws up all its old shields,
But now there's a whiff of desperation in the air;
It senses the game is up.
There's a keen awareness going on concurrently
That this is something quite unlike any place I've ever been before.
There's a softer, more powerful imperative calling me
To work more intuitively and creatively
Because there are no valid precedents now to guide (or limit) me.
I'm making it up as I go along.

In this state I'm becoming very aware
Where previously hidden shields and boundaries were,
And I'm finding ways to master
The shifts of subtler energies and dimensions.

I mention the uncomfortable, unfamiliar side of what's going on
Because I don't want you to be under any illusion that transformation is a doddle,
And be put off by the reality of it.
There's a reason that Transformation is the road less travelled......
The discomforts that accompany an invitation to transform
Convince most people that there's something "wrong",
And the automatic protective shields and defences are activated
To make these "bad" feelings go away.
Unless you override the tick-tock defence mechanics,
Yet another opportunity will go begging.

If you get fazed by the initially unpleasant deterrents to transformation
And continue to avoid or block moves to open up,
You'll be turning your back on your full inheritance
Of being human.
Touching, allowing and moving beyond the tick-tock
Empowers us.
When we find ourselves inexplicably forced
To re-contemplate areas we thought were resolved,
Or to enter levels we may have heard about,
But have no idea about until we actually experience them,
We are rewarded by accelerating maturity,
A deeper and more genuine level of compassion for others
And the insight of an experience few people live long enough afterward to share around.
(I say that because most people evade, avoid and resist the inevitable
Until the process of dying at last forces them,
Very, very reluctantly, to go through it.)

Here are two things worth remembering
As you develop your psychic skills and appreciate a larger reality --

1. In order to perceive something, you have to enter the level of reality in which that thing was created, and in which it exists. You will develop a facility for flicking between levels of awareness.
2. You will see not only what you want to see, but you will also see things you may NOT want to see. It is neccessary to look at all you see with the same sense of balance.

Which leads me to the biggie that lies behind the old adage -- Be careful what you ask for -- you might get more than you bargained for.........

In the process of creating what you want

You may also be creating what you don't want,

And/or what you might not even have imagined.

"I feel I may be creating the very thing I'm most afraid of."

That's the stopper!
This, I think, lies at the heart of our dread of transformation --
The recognition that what we most desire lies inside what we're most afraid of,

And the fearful realisation that we have to relinquish all control,

Including control over the outcome.

It is true in my experience that
As consciousness expands
Those areas I fear most or formerly rejected outright
Seem at first to grow larger and more real.
And I'm blowed if I know why!
Is there some cosmic joker who delights
In making the journey of evolution
Look and feel like some fairground horror-ride?
Why is it that every step out of the fall from grace
Looks worse from underneath than the step you're on?
I don't know.
But standing in a pool of "Why's" is a sure way to stay stuck.
("Why's" ain't wise.)
That's the way the game goes;
Get on with it.
[I spent most of my first 45 years
Taking the road more-frequented
And finished up getting just as lost as those around me.
I headed up the slippery slopes of consciousness
With all my conditional ideas of right or wrong, better or worse, real or not-real....
And got to be right, miserable and back where I started, over and over again]
.
Nowadays when faced with options, I do the opposite;
I discard the comfort stuff
And choose the less obvious, the less-popular, the less comfortable-looking way through.
It seems to be working;
I'm not the same person I was 10 years ago,
And that's only happened since I gave up trying to change!

I've found an absolute, unconditional centre of awareness
From which to view everything that's happening.
Unfortunately, I don't live here yet,
But even the occasional visit is enough
To let me get my bearings
Before I get creatively lost again.

Here's one way to break the inevitable deadlocks......
Resolve any separating emotions,
By making them OK.
Make (e.g.) fear OK
By making it OK to have both the fear, and the thing that is feared.
Make anger OK
By making it OK to have both the anger and that which you're angry about.
Make sadness OK
By making it OK to have the sadness, and the object of your grief......
Get it?

Opening up your heart,
Giving a deep "Yes" to everything,
And exploring the transforming process for all its worth
Will deliver you by far the richest, most involving, all-embracing, challenging and rewarding experiences you will ever have in your life.
You will, at last,
Live fully
While you're still alive enough to enjoy it.