Here's
a thought I've hung out with quite a lot lately = I
am not good enough, and I am being used, bullied, ignored,
disrespected, treated unfairly........ I
know this thought rather well; it has hung around me for almost as
long as I can remember.
It's
not real, of course, it's just my mind in play, interpreting what's
happening, hitching onto my interpretation, and the feelings of
hostility, anger , resentment and revenge that are sticking to it
like flies on dead meat.
All
of that is “me”, but none of it is what I truly am. “I” just
thinks
I am that, and then I become an effect, a victim in a continuing
Greek tragedy that I'm making up around what's happening. But the
“Me” that is dramatising and acting out all this stuff isn't
real, so none of the drama could possibly be real either. Just a
waking dream, like the one I had a few moments ago about being lost
in a huge shopping/cinema complex, trying to find the toilet......
Then I woke up. No shopping centre, no crowds, not lost, just a need
to pee.
Wake
up. The story is bullshit, swarming with feelings like flies. Now, are you willing
to finally let your favourite negative feelings
complete
themselves? Are you? Are you willing to stop playing out your mind's
games and get on with enjoying life for its own sake?
If you've finally had a gutful, look at what you've been swallowing.
[I
Know an Old Lady – Burl Ives – 2:41]
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